people around me know what has happened recently. is it selfish of me to be annoyed with the mindset they shouldn’t take things personally? if I’m quiet that day it is because I need that. another day I may feel slightly refreshed so I will be somewhat closer to being myself again. I believe they should know I still need some time, but I can’t teach a person a change of perspective in a single day.
I think one of the hardest things about losing loved ones is wishing I could have done more. all that I may experience in this life will be a lesson and a reminder to change things in my daily life for the better. I need to be more responsible and get things done, prioritize my day, and adjust my attitude. my thoughts and mind are a little out of balance right now as I work my way back to happiness. I am learning to be more vocal and tell the people in my life how much I appreciate their being and love and adore them. those are my words of wisdom to you.
Something about the joy and pain of that moment, something about the excruciating contrast, made me feel that no matter what happens now, my life has been worth it. What a ride.
—Chris Crutcher (via purplebuddhaproject)